Just Another Manic Monday..

Over the past week, I've decided that I have quite the chaotic life. Along with that, I've decided that every couple I know almost has been having major issues, if not broken up completely; and that's sad. Why are relationships so much work anyways? Aren't they supposed to be enjoyable and come fairly easily? Apparently, I was wrong. I realize that everything worthwhile takes a decent amount of work, but this much, really? I mean honestly, is a relationship honestly a positive aspect of your life when you change who you are, just to mold to the other person in the relationship? Compromise is indeed important, but changing who you are as a person isn't always necessary; if you change for the better then wonderful, but if you change negatively, is that right? I don't think so. I've come to realize also that I've changed negatively over a period of time. I am now as cold as ice; I show zero emotion unless I'm mad about something. Basically, I've become emotionally undetached, and I can't stand being this way anymore. This is not who I am, or who I want to be. A relationship has indeed had a negative impact on my personality, if you ask me. I'm just scared that I will never revert back to my old self.

Next thing about relationships, aren't you supposed to kind of go in stages? Like friends, to best friends, to dating, to full-out relationship, etc.? How can you have a positive relationship without the friend/best friend aspect of it all? I don't think it's possible, but of course, someone else feels the need to disagree with me, as usual. It's always his way, or no way. That's not compromise. Ugh. Stressful much?

Anyrate, it's monday once again, the third week of the quarter. It's going by super fast this time around. I have sooo much to catch up on already. My Grandma had surgery last week, therefore I missed a few classes to be with her and my family. What can ya do right? Things happen. So needless to say, I need to bust my butt with stuff till the concert on Wednesday. I'm going to see Theory of A Deadman again, and I'm just as pumped as I was the first time :) They are great in concert, the opening bands don't sound too bad either. Parlor Mob (?) and Black Stone Cherry are the two openers. They are playing in Findlay at The Whiskey Venue. Should be a great time :)

Time to get my butt to Physiology class :( I'm not so excited about that, nor CS&E 101 at 3:50 this afternoon. Mondays and wednesdays suck so bad, lol. I guess it makes up for only having one class on Fridays though! Gotta run, hopefully my day/week gets a little better. .